Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Friends

The weekend for movie-watching was a bit boring because it turned out to be a girls' night. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against girl flicks but they have been around too much and they don't really catch my attention. I have enough of that in school harharhar! I spent the time with Elize, Angelo, Maky and Jostein talking about anything, from bluetooth to Blueberry to paper clips to family to Hemp Republic.

Being with friends always gives me the feeling that it's not worth worrying over things that turn out to be so trivial. I do not have many friends that I get to talk to every so often but I value constant conversations with people that let you know you matter to them.

Like Elize, who was my neighbor forever until she moved to Antipolo and became Sid's neighbor, much to her pet dogs' delight. Elize is like an older sister who would always know ahead if what I 'm going to do will be acceptable or not. I admit I don't listen to her all the time but I value everything that she told me.

Like Jostein, who was my first friend in school. I will never forget the time when we both had to wait in the guard's quarters for our drivers and we both knew we had the same problems then. It's what connected us and even if we don't get to spend time everyday it's like no time has passed when we bump into each other.

Like Gary, who proved to me that even if you dislike someone before, you can be good friends in time. I did not appreciate Gary's friendship if not for the events after the campaign. He's also my relationship and spiritual adviser, hehe!

Like Maky, who is the most amazing person alive today. No bull. She is one friend you wish you have, despite what other people say. Character is what attracted me to her and she never fails to tell me what I needed to hear at a certain moment. Talking to her is always an adventure; you'll never know what's going to happen. Nothing is predictable on this person. She keeps the balance in my life and her friendship is one thing that I treasure among the many great things I have now. We only became this close two years ago and I'm glad we did. If not, it's like admiring her from afar.

Like Randee, who simply rocks. I'm speechless about him. He's like the Busta Rhymes of the Pussycat Dolls. Hehe. Freak.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Closer to HOT...

Last Saturday, I finally watched Closer with my friends. We watched it in Maky's house, the undisputed queen of pirated dvds in all of Greenhills, in their impressive mini-theater. I was with ten people, and despite Maky's perennial masungit warnings of "Don't shriek too much", we enjoyed it. I planned to watch it by myself but having them was more fun than watching it alone.
Closer is about four people whose lives are intertwined by lust and love. Some say it's surreal but for me it's your typical relationship complexity; developing feelings for people you do not know are within your circle, although on a different level. You meet and realize that you can't control your feelings and go with the flow for a while, sacrificing to lose what you have. It tackles going for what you want at the moment with no assurance that it is what will make you happy even in the future. Then one day, you realize that things are falling apart and you become confused and eventually decide. There is no certainty but you can just hope that what you chose is whatever's best for you. Worse, you may find that what will make you happy has gone away because of your sudden but short-lived fantasy towards another person.

Jopi was right when he said that the movie, just like many people in real life, just wants to love and be loved. It's what the movie presented and it was complicated when (which also the reality that) sometimes, we tend to make crooked choices to fulfill those aims.

Of course, I will be hypocrite if I dont say that I will never forget this movie because my wife, Natalie Portman, is in her hottest best. My friends were all hooting when during the striptease/erotic dance with Clive Owens. It's something that you can just replay in your mind over and over. She was just so hot!!! For me she is even the lead in this movie. She carried it well. But back off guys, she's mine. Harharhar. Good thing I watched Revenge of the Sith before Closer, otherwise I will look at my wife in a different way.

Our classes are about to officially end in ten days and I am looking forward to wasting my break doing movie marathons. Next time, I will not forget to bring my share. If I do forget, I will pay Maky's electric bill. That I promise, harharhar.

Friday, May 20, 2005

The Night I Said Goodbye

Is the night I felt I can give that much love. No matter what they thought and will think of me, I will always hold true the moment I felt that you cared for me, too. The moments when your cheek brushes with mine, your hand touches my arm, reassuring me that everything will be alright, as long as our love is alive. The look in your eyes that says it all, the pouty smile that tells me I said the right thing at the right time.

When I wake up every morning I tell myself that this is all just a dream.

But no, it's not, because you're not there anymore.

You chose. Something that I told you to do, hoping that you will choose me. But you did not. I graciously accept defeat but I didn't tell you it won't hurt.

The night I said goodbye is the night when you said goodbye, too. It's mutual, we know. I believe you when you said that you're hurting as well. I do.

Goodbye, till we meet again.

Eramm

Monday, December 27, 2004

Blogging Problem

I forgot that I have a blog. What's there to blog about anyway? My life is going by so fast I can't keep up. For now, I can only be thankful because my Mom was spared from the wrath of the tsunami in Colombo. The EAP branch of ADB was supposed to be there for business trips but she begged off the last minute because something happened at home. I can't imagine losing her, or any of the people close to me, in a tragedy like that. It's not like getting sick, thinking about it is hard to do in itself.

So, what's there to blog about? That my proposals for the House (in school only) got ditched? That I was not supported by people who I thought understood what I was driving at? Maky told me that it is the reality of politics and that these people may understood me but it does not follow that they will support me. Gah. I forgot she's one of those people who understood but did not support. I'm not feeling bad, I just frown at the lost chance.

My exam scores are okay, never been better. I never prided myself to be the bright guy type because I am not, but all my scores have been respectable so it is something to be happy about.

Patty, I updated this blog already. Harharhar. Merry christmas and a prosperous new year to all of you.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Untitled

I DON'T MISS YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE GONE. I MISS YOU BECAUSE YOU IGNORE ME. I MISS YOU BECAUSE THIS IS NOT WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN BUT IT IS HAPPENING. I DREAD THE DAY THAT I WILL WALK UP TO YOU AND YOU WILL COMPLETELY IGNORE ME, AS IF I DO NOT EXIST AT ALL. I GET HURT BY THE FACT THAT I KNOW I DID NOTHING WRONG BUT PERCEPTION PREVENTED ME FROM EXPLAINING MY SIDE. I AM NOT PERFECT IN AS MUCH AS NOBODY IS. I ONLY CARE SINCERELY IN THAT I AM NOT EXPECTING TO BE CARED FOR BACK, JUST TO BE NOTICED.

Monday, October 25, 2004

Quotable Quotes II

"He's gotta be dead by now right?"

"How could he not be. Fuck it! Let's just go! The squirrels will eat him anyway."

- Chris and Paulie

(a personal favorite)

"Get your ass inside and be a good Catholic for fifteen fuckin' minutes!" - Carmela to Anthony Jr.

More cool qoutes from The Sopranos here.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Let's turn slumbook-y today.

1. Define Love

God?

2. Who's your first love?

A girl a year older than I am, whose IQ is impressive and whose EQ is way beyond a cool girlfriend. We let each other go but I still miss her sometimes.

3. Do you believe in the saying that goes "First love never dies?"

No. It dies. The feeling wanes. It does. The passion, I guess. It dies but it's unforgettable. Good or otherwise.

4. How do you know when it's really love?

I don't know. You just feel it.

5. Do you know when someone likes you?

Yes. Not to lift my own wooden bench in the park but yes.

6. Is love lovelier the second time around?

It depends.

7. What' s your opinion about the saying "LOVE IS BLIND?"

No comment. Harharhar.

8. Will you do everything for the person you love?

Yes. No questions asked. But it has to be for a valid, sane reason.

9. Will you ever fall in love with your best friend?

I did. Kidding. Well, not in the context that the girl is my bestfriend already. I might.

10. What's your type of girl?

Someone who makes sense. Who is not conventional, can speak a different language (not literally) but still managaes to be in sync with my usual erratic self.

11. Do you express your feelings openly?

Only when it is wise (or at least harmless) to do so.

12. What do you dislike in a girl?

I think all guys would get turned off by overconfidence and kaartehan. Flirts are definitely not to be taken seriously. Having sisters gives you this feeling of pity towards girls who can stoop low just to be noticed. If for others, it is self-expression, for some it is offensive. Sorry but stupidity is a major turn-off too. Ignorance is good but dumbness is just too much to take.

13. Who's your crush?

Somebody in school who can (okay, not in the literal sense) crush every guys' balls with just the authority of her voice. Seriously, this girl who makes me laugh not because something was stupid, but because something made sense and I found it amusing.

14. Do you have a girlfriend?

Not at the moment.

15. Do you wanna meet her parents?

I don't have one but if I have, it is always on top my list. Intentions count.

16. Is it possible for you to fall in love with an older woman?

I did. Not old woman, but someone older than me. Natalie Portman is older and she married me in my dreams so I guess that's it.

17. Eh younger?

Always the ideal, for me.

18. How hard is a break-up?

Harder than our heartbreak tolerance level. It hurts so much more than you thought it would just be.

19. Are you a heartbreaker?

I would want to say no but it is not proper for me to answer that.

20. What do you do after a break-up?

Think a lot. Escaping is a bland form of coping. Sleep, wake up, then think again. After a few days, it becomes easier to bear.

21. Do you swear never to fall in love again?

One of the things I will never do.

22. What's the greatest lesson you've learned regarding love?

Enjoy it while it lasts.